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why do i sleep? is it to rest? to gain strength back after a day? i just don't know anymore.... all i can think about is depression... being hater in the past, reminded from my past that i am just a no body, a creature left to rot like a stray dog.... i'm afraid that i might forget myself like people had... i might as well anyway and be forgotten by everyone.... what am i saying... some of you may read this half and don't care.... like someone who i was friends... thought i could trust her.... now i see the real world about her...

i heard about the "phenix" plenty of time who rises from the ashes.... i don't think that will happen to me... i might as well listen to my thoughts and stay in the dark for ever and never communicate... that's the only thing i can do... feel the darkness and let it tell me things while i curl up into a ball of my own imagination

i never asked for help because i always think to my that that "no one would hear my call nor help like my mother does" the is a lovely woman and when i'm sad, she would embrace me into a warm hug.... but... i can't live with he.... the reason why is my social worker who don't even f******* understand (money goes in Swear Jar) i wonder how much swearing comes out of my mouth.... because the amount of s*** (money goes in swear jar) that i sware might had been like 5 years or 10 years....

"do i even think that a worse person can change? that everyone can be a good person, if they just try?".... i can't... i make a mess everywhere i go.... i should die in a pit hole if i had the chance to do so.... cause i'm a sinner and bad luck to everyone.... why do i life...? why was i born...? WHY DO I HAVE TO LIVE?!?!?!............

....i don't even know who to listen to know anymore....
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this stupid depression is still getting to me as it is very little now, but i will be fine, i'm a strong gal
why do i sleep? is it to rest? to gain strength back after a day? i just don't know anymore.... all i can think about is depression... being hater in the past, reminded from my past that i am just a no body, a creature left to rot like a stray dog.... i'm afraid that i might forget myself like people had... i might as well anyway and be forgotten by everyone.... what am i saying... some of you may read this half and don't care.... like someone who i was friends... thought i could trust her.... now i see the real world about her...

i heard about the "phenix" plenty of time who rises from the ashes.... i don't think that will happen to me... i might as well listen to my thoughts and stay in the dark for ever and never communicate... that's the only thing i can do... feel the darkness and let it tell me things while i curl up into a ball of my own imagination

i never asked for help because i always think to my that that "no one would hear my call nor help like my mother does" the is a lovely woman and when i'm sad, she would embrace me into a warm hug.... but... i can't live with he.... the reason why is my social worker who don't even f******* understand (money goes in Swear Jar) i wonder how much swearing comes out of my mouth.... because the amount of s*** (money goes in swear jar) that i sware might had been like 5 years or 10 years....

"do i even think that a worse person can change? that everyone can be a good person, if they just try?".... i can't... i make a mess everywhere i go.... i should die in a pit hole if i had the chance to do so.... cause i'm a sinner and bad luck to everyone.... why do i life...? why was i born...? WHY DO I HAVE TO LIVE?!?!?!............

....i don't even know who to listen to know anymore....

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Jasmin Michelle Vant
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Might be editing this once a while when i am happy with it-

if there are any icons i used, you are always credited by me, what ever icon i used to avatars, i will link you in a journal where it will say "credits", that way, i can link to those who i used and that way i can check out your page and support you even more!

What i can be like -:

Hello, my name is Jasmin Michelle Vant, I love to draw different things and interact with others, even making new friends and chatting to them/you, I can be joy-able, happy, excited, sometimes giddy.

I may have short term memory, but will try to reply to your comments and/or notes, if I don't get to them, I might be asleep, having a break or something, I will promise to get back to you as soon as possible, if I don't get back to you in about a week, send me a note and will reply.

How I react to others -:

Sometimes, I can be a bit snappy, but, I would often send a "Thank You" note to you without even thinking of looking if you do want to be thanked or not, if I said "thank you" to you, I am sorry, but, in my life, I had the habit of saying Thanks to the person, I just can't help it.

I will also try to tend to send a "thank you for the -Llama/Watch/Fave" for those who I haven't thanked for that, I am going to try and do a challenge to do different Logos for my 73 characters and do different messages on (might do a quote as well) it would be the first time for me to do.

What conditions i have -:

Autism
Anxiety
Heart Murmur

These conditions will be in my journal entries, you guys don't have to look on how I feel about having the conditions, it's totally up to your choice.

The Quote of the day -:

"The loneliest people are the kindest, The saddest people smile the brightest, The most damaged people are the wisest, All because they don't wish to see anyone suffer the way they did."

Where to find me -:

If you like to get in touch with me, you can Email me on google hangouts - jasminvent5@gmail.com - or just Email normally and you can follow me on

- www.facebook.com/profile.php?i…

- www.quotev.com/BlackMariaSparr…

- www.youtube.com/channel/UC6jSM…
Interests

Commissions

Head Shot
i thought to do a commission for head shots, i will do characters from other anime or your oc, if it has accessories, they may cost about 1 or 2 points per accessories, if you want a background in, it would be 5 points more, i am hoping to your commissions at some point

(more examples coming soon)

Donate

JasminMinshull has started a donation pool!
50 / 2,000
please comment of what you want me to plan out and i will do it, it can be any character and i will will do it from human or cat, the costs (points) will show you how much they will cost:

(Human -child- -Female/Male- 10 points)

(Human -Teen- -Female/Male- 15 point)

(Human -Adult- -Female/Make- 20 points)

Cat -Female/Male- 5 points

Dog -Female/Male- 5 points

Pony -Female/Male- 10 points

please pay first then comment which one you want me to do for a character, but friends are for free, i do not accept when people watch me and unwatch me, cause i will not do your request of the donation, so, please watch me without unwatching, plus, i found out that i can only do the animals, the ones in brackets that i may need a picture as i do the workon the character that you want me to do the animal -we will work out the cost together)

extra - but any other donations will do

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Makerva Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Professional Digital Artist
Bat : Bullets by AngelicHellraiser Thank you for the :+fav: & the :+devwatch: I really appreciate your support! :blackrose: Bat : Bullets by AngelicHellraiser
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JasminMinshull Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
your very welcome
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ScarletsFeed Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch dear~! <3
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JasminMinshull Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
your very welcome
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TheCrimsonSpark Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Student Traditional Artist
Cheers for the watch ^^ Much appreciated!
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JasminMinshull Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
no problem hun, i always support people who i watch
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TheCrimsonSpark Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Student Traditional Artist
Fair enough, that's cool. ^^
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JasminMinshull Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
hope to see lovely art from you
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moccabun Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for adding my newest deviation to your favs! <3 
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JasminMinshull Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
^^ no problem
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